Hey, guys. It's me, Aloreece. Better known as Reecy. I'm alive and well.
To all the new players, I was an administrator in this server before I left.
I want to share something with you all.
Now I don't expect any of you to believe me or care or understand, etc.
It's just an insight as to why I faked my own death and decided to disappear.
I'll be returning to the server.
Please don't make it hard for me online.
Completely ignore me if you must.
Treat me like a stranger. I deserve it and I'm okay with that.
xxx
18 October 2017
3 of us were in Aberdeen for a friend's 21st birthday party. It's a small town 54km from Graaff Reinet, my hometown. Google it if you must.
19 October 2017
Around 3 am in the morning. The party comes to an end. I was the designated driver because I don't drink a lot. My 2 friends, Bronwyn and Kendra, drunk, said we should stay in Aberdeen and sleep it off. I convinced them I'm okay, for I had little to drink, and that we could make it back to Graaff Reinet just fine. It was only 54km. I wanted to get home.
Around 3:50 am. Whilst on our way back, we came to a curve. At 110km/h and turning, I saw an object in the lane that I'm driving in. It was just a dead animal.
I reacted too late and instead of hitting the brakes, I swerved to avoid the roadkill. Trying to get back in back in my lane, the car started sliding. And the next thing it was spinning...
(Opel Corsa Lite. No power steering and no anti-lock braking system)
Kendra and I screamed and panicked. Our friend, Bronwyn, was asleep in the back seat. Or passed out. Too drunk to react to anything.
The car spun off the road before being brought to a stop by a fence...
Kendra and I suffered minor to no damages. Only a couple of cuts and bruises.
Bronwyn snapped her neck... I don't know if it was the spinning of the car or the impact of the stop...
I guess due to the fact that she was asleep, she couldn't brace herself for anything...
I'll share a picture of the curve. There are flowers and a cross put up for her. But I won't share it now. It's too personal.
xxx
And now you know my story.
It feels like I have blood on my hands.
And I've to live with that for the rest of my life.
All because I thought it was a good idea to drive home in the middle of the morning...
For a time I wished that it was me instead of her...
I should've died on 19 October 2017
20 October 2017
I faked my own death because:
1. I should've died the previous day.
2. I couldn't accept what happened, I couldn't keep it together and was thinking irrationally.
3. I wanted to disappear and never be heard from again by anyone I knew. Well, online at least. Can't escape real life.
The admin team had no part faking anything of course. They tried to reach out to me but I deleted my social media and lead them to believe that I'm gone. And I had some people speaking on behalf of me.
But somehow I always find my way back to SA-MP. Especially LVCNR. This place feels like home... and I ran away from it. And shunned my family.
I don't know how to say sorry.
I don't expect anyone's forgiveness.
But at least you know now what really happened...
To all the new players, I was an administrator in this server before I left.
I want to share something with you all.
Now I don't expect any of you to believe me or care or understand, etc.
It's just an insight as to why I faked my own death and decided to disappear.
I'll be returning to the server.
Please don't make it hard for me online.
Completely ignore me if you must.
Treat me like a stranger. I deserve it and I'm okay with that.
xxx
18 October 2017
3 of us were in Aberdeen for a friend's 21st birthday party. It's a small town 54km from Graaff Reinet, my hometown. Google it if you must.
19 October 2017
Around 3 am in the morning. The party comes to an end. I was the designated driver because I don't drink a lot. My 2 friends, Bronwyn and Kendra, drunk, said we should stay in Aberdeen and sleep it off. I convinced them I'm okay, for I had little to drink, and that we could make it back to Graaff Reinet just fine. It was only 54km. I wanted to get home.
Around 3:50 am. Whilst on our way back, we came to a curve. At 110km/h and turning, I saw an object in the lane that I'm driving in. It was just a dead animal.
I reacted too late and instead of hitting the brakes, I swerved to avoid the roadkill. Trying to get back in back in my lane, the car started sliding. And the next thing it was spinning...
(Opel Corsa Lite. No power steering and no anti-lock braking system)
Kendra and I screamed and panicked. Our friend, Bronwyn, was asleep in the back seat. Or passed out. Too drunk to react to anything.
The car spun off the road before being brought to a stop by a fence...
Kendra and I suffered minor to no damages. Only a couple of cuts and bruises.
Bronwyn snapped her neck... I don't know if it was the spinning of the car or the impact of the stop...
I guess due to the fact that she was asleep, she couldn't brace herself for anything...
I'll share a picture of the curve. There are flowers and a cross put up for her. But I won't share it now. It's too personal.
xxx
And now you know my story.
It feels like I have blood on my hands.
And I've to live with that for the rest of my life.
All because I thought it was a good idea to drive home in the middle of the morning...
For a time I wished that it was me instead of her...
I should've died on 19 October 2017
20 October 2017
I faked my own death because:
1. I should've died the previous day.
2. I couldn't accept what happened, I couldn't keep it together and was thinking irrationally.
3. I wanted to disappear and never be heard from again by anyone I knew. Well, online at least. Can't escape real life.
The admin team had no part faking anything of course. They tried to reach out to me but I deleted my social media and lead them to believe that I'm gone. And I had some people speaking on behalf of me.
But somehow I always find my way back to SA-MP. Especially LVCNR. This place feels like home... and I ran away from it. And shunned my family.
I don't know how to say sorry.
I don't expect anyone's forgiveness.
But at least you know now what really happened...
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